perginya tak kembali… 9.11.2009
i am so sad now.. my dear baby hamster was found dead.. n lagi menyedihkan bila i tgk ada sekor yg menemani dia.. mula2 i pelik tgk dia tdo mati.. skali mmg betul dia dah mati.. sedey sangat rasa di hati.. sebab kita bela dari dia baby lagi kan.. i taw jangka hayat seekor tikus tak lama .. sob sob.. waktu i nak masukkan dalam plastik, i tgk maata dia terbukak sikit.. herm… dalam hati i berdoa pada illahi.. “ampunkan laa dosaku kiranya aku telah abaikan si mati ini”… amiiiiin..
so skang, my dear hamster dah tinggal 6 ekor… i baru je pindahkan yg paling kecik ke cage yg kecil… sebab i tgk “kecik” macam sakit… terdampar je kat tmpt minuman dia.. kecian pulak tgk dia dilanggar oleh yg lain2.. yg masih aktif tak kira masa.. hehe.. kecik ni dari dia baby sampailaa lar nih.. saiz dia mmg paling kiut.. tapi kalau part nak mandi, keciklaaa paling susah… laju sangat.. nak pegang pon takut termati dalam genggaman tanganku pulak.. hehe… kecik needs my highest attention now.. i agak2 yg mati tadi adalah abah kecik.. n yg setia menemani tadi adalah mama kecik.. kiranya kecik dah jadi anak yatim laa ek? 
today i kene marah ngan cnar.. again.. hehe.. lantaklaaa… tapi salah i jugak.. my instinct da btaw g check pasal agreement tu… tapi i macam leka.. yerlaa keje berlambak.. bos kita senang laaa kan.. nak itu nak ini.. yg do the thinking and generate data tu kita.. kulikutif dia jugak… pastu senang2 nak letak kesalahan atas bahu kita kan? macam laa dorg terus jadi manager lepas uni dulu.. tapi deep inside, i tak laa terasa kene marah pon sebab i bangga yg i sempat selamatkan coy i … kalau dah sign laa agreement tu n ada prob, i akan lebih menyesal seumo hidup sebab i yg dok belek agreement tu setiap kali ada changes… n at least i belajar sesuatu hari ini.. nak jadii berjaya kita perlu lakukan kesalahan agar kita lebih peka kelak.. n tadi bos i kata, “lepas ni u check our legal nye keje” .. wah wah wah.. i ni yg nak kene check keje legal ek? chop chop.. my background cuma accountancy .. so apahal pulak nak letakkan beban yg sangat tinggi kan? eventhough i like to vett the agreement doesnt mean i need to bear all kan? dah la nak kene check level manager.. ni yg rasa tak aci nih. gaji korang punya besar, tapi keje pembersihan bagi kat i… isk..
bila nak dapat offer lain nih?
4.11.2009
it’s been a while since my last post kan? herm.. so sorry..tak bermaksud nak menyepi tapi life tak berapa nak balance.. i tgh buat alignment here n there.. so.. i have lots of things to write though but where to start ek? it is now 12 am… i mmg tak boleh tido lagi.. my mind still running… sedangkan tadi masa minum coffee 2 teguk, i rasa cam nak tdo kat kedai dan dan tu jugak.. hehehe.. funny y suddenly i suka ngn coffee.. tapi mesti yang lemak berkrim disukai ramai laaa.. i rasa cam everyday i mesti nak kene minum coffee.. yet my body still takleh terima lots of caffeine.. cepat dizzy n sleepy… hehehe.. plus my tummy stil takleh digest milk.. so, slalunya i drink coffee after assured dah enuff lapisan makanan dalam perut.. manja betul .. :p
hari ni i takde mood nak keje.. bosan betul ngn opis n ngan bos.. leh tak cakap camtu? tapi i have the feeling that tomorrow i akan kene belasah ngan my dearest boss.. ntahlaa kenapa but usually my instinct ni leh di guna pakai.. hehehe.. but life must go on kan? bak kata lee “ada aku kesah?” :p
i rasa dah lama betul tak lepak w frens who used to be close to my heart.. my time management mmg sucks aa ek? ni nak study dah laama tapi masih dok melayari internet.. karang baru bukak buku tobat mata akan ngantok.. hehehe.. dah laa nak study accounting..
my list for update as per below :
1. uk trip
2. my lil angel a.k.a guardian
3. cancer kills
guess yang tu je laa yg major.. will update later k.. daaaa
dubai epot… 19.9.2009
now i tgh transit kat dubai epot.. waktu kat sini kol 12.15 am… waktu mesia tanah tumpah darah tercinta now pukul 4.30 am.. mata dah samar2 namun masih dapat bertahan lagi.. gikpon nak kene siapkan minutes of meeting pulak.. letey laa bos i nih.. dah tau i nak bercuti lagi mau suruh i siapkan keje.. tak cool langsung… cheh~!!!
hrm, i nak ambil kesempatan ini utk mengucapkan selamat hari raya pada org2 yg rajin menjenguk blog saya yg tak seberapa nih… esp thisfellar, D007, informant n tak lupa to fadzlowen.. love u guys…
salam sayang,
cekey
dubai epot
I’m full of B… :)
Kali ni i nak buat n3 on “what’s behind a blood B type person”.. im one of millions laaa.. n my apology sebab i tak save type yang lain.. tapi pada yg sama type ngn i tuh, high 5.. yang lain.. it is a good benchmark though.. heheheh
My basic behaviors… -i am bad at this.. :p
* Cannot take orders easily
* Make decisions fast
* Can be flexible
* Do not care about rules - bubu can confirm this.. hehe
* Respect scientific and practical findings
My tolerance level…
* Maintain the longest interest in what they do
* Seem impatient
* Dislike repetitious work – tu sebab sampai la ni tak nak keje buat accounts.. wasted the scroll je kan. hik hik..
* Hard to forget recent affairs, but able to forget past and memories – that’s y i dont need gingko biloba..
How do I express my emotions?
* Expressive
* Cool and objective
* Although joke a lot, could actually be very shy
* Change moods like the weather
* Cannot stop complaining when they are upset - i just realized this like 2 mths ago.. ahakzx
How do I work?
* Creative and possess new ideas
* Cannot differentiate between work and hobby
* Cannot take orders
* Do not hesitate to introduce innovative changes and are not worried about theirs criticisms
so.. after reading the above i leh cakap yg personally 99% betul semua tu.. kalau org lain same blood takder meaning di atas so, u have room to improvise urself. *larriiiiikkkkkkk
sahabat… 17.8.2009
it’s almost 5.30 p.m. n my brain dah tak nak proses mende2 opis dah.. i have lots of things to complete but hey.. tomorrow masih ada kan.. n there’s something keeps bothering my mind too.. since this morning.. n i guess i have no choice but to write my heart out here..
there are many things we want to do n achieve in our life.. whether we can get it in short time or maybe it will take years.. maybe u found it n mayb the other way round.. there are many things i want too.. n one of it is to find my true sahabat.. sahabat dunia n akhirat.. sahabat yg dapat memahami hati i tanpa perlu i katakan secara lisan.. yang paham i sedang berduka tanpa perlu di beritahu.. yang mana akan bersama mengharungi suka dan duka dengan i.. where can i get one? i am tired looking for this special person ..everytime i met someone i think is “the one”, i will be thankful of allah’s gift..alhamdulillah antara calon2 sahabat dunia akhirat i ni i jumpa di sekolah or uni..but when the hard time comes i.e. being dumped in another word, i’ll b xtremely sad…
to name them … zura, dd, zack, kina, ad, cna and ngek.. all of them mmg superb .. we accepted each other well.. n i enjoyed my young days happily.. semua bagi i different experience.. my family kenal mereka.. termasuk aunty2 n nenek atuk… tak semua “hilang” dari my life laaa.. ada yg still being my bestfriend but the closenest has gone..
last week i quarrelled ngan my little sister.. just because i tak bagi dia sambung tido in my room.. suddenly dia leh cakap “angah ingat angah bagus sangat? mana kawan2 angah yg angah agung2kan selama nih?semua pergi tinggalkan angah”.. terkedu i.. ek? apa dah jadi.. mmg betul i bawak diorang ke rumah n i stick with them until one of us tarik diri… but i tak sangka adik i leh cakap cmtu ngn i.. dia tak pk ke i am hurt by that statement n even hurt kehilangan mereka? org yg i sayang..
however.. ngek.. u r an angel… despite all the “halangan”.. kita semakin hari semakin close kan.. u was sent by allah as a gift.. as new soul to my life.. i am truly happy having u in my life.. i really hope u r the one.. the one ive been looking for.. the one who will appreciate me as a fren.. a good fren ..a person who will complete my journey… i promised i will not hurt u.. i dah serik lalui saat tu..maybe tak ramai yg paham or maybe ada yg nak muntah baca entry i ni.. but mereka adalah golongan yg kerugian tak mengenal erti persahabatan.. we will prove this..thanks again, lon… love ya.. i nak g makan mee kari jap.. heheheh
lately ni i am so eazili get headache.. maybe dur to my low blood pressure.. doc suruh i bersukan tapi “kaki” da takder.. bila doc suruh i tinggikan kaki dari paras kepala, i buat satu malam jer…sebab i mmg tdo ala ala bentuk C.. macam baby dalam perut mummy dia.. hehehe…
so.. what i can do is to avoid direct sunlight.. macam vampire laa kononnya.. hi hi.. i kene kontrol myself sebelum melarat n i leh pengsan secara suka hati brain i.. alhamdulillah sampai skang i leh control my body lagi..
herm.. times up.. i nak balik dah.. chalow….
congratulation adam n aqil…
on 9.8.2009 (Sunday) both adam n aqil dah sah jadi mummy n daddy.. they got 5 reddish kids.. nanti ada masa i upload gambar diorang k? skang takleh lagi.. nanti mummy diorang marah pulak.. i teruja sangat bila abang btau all 5 still alive.. hopefully diorang akan membesar dengan sihat..
nway, adam n aqil are both belong to me n abang (my little bro)… actually they are pairs of cute little hamster.. male n female walau both nama boy.. actually we bought them on mother’s day.. mama wanted a new fish yg boleh membesar ngn berat 2 kg as mother’s day gift… tapi last2 i n abang plak gatal nak bela hamster.. hhehe…
so, we gave aqil (my cute n talkative cam org tua nephew) the honour to namakan both hamster.. n sambil tunjuk kat hamster dia sebut ” ni aqil… n ni adam (uncle kesayangan dia)..” puas i pujuk cakap yg satu boy, satu tu gugurl… tapi he still insist with the names.. so melekat laa nama adam n aqil… adam belongs to the female hamster n yg kurus tapi sangat active tu pulak represents himself… *kecik2 dah ada sifat perasan kan anak buah i tuh.. heheheh..
cekey : heppy sangat nak jadi “aunty” kepada 5 cute little hamster.. ekekekeke
cekey : pening nak bagi nama apa kat 5 baby baru tuh.. any suggestion?
funny… 7.8.2009
lately i am so tired … with work , study n my normal chore… i had sleepless nite.. sometimes at 3 baru leh tido.. the earliest pon i tido at 1.. then will keep terjaga few times..
cam last 2 nites.. i had a rough nite… berpusing sana.. guling sini hanya utk melelapkan mata.. tak tau sleep at wut time as the last time i tgk jam dah pukul 2.. *sigh* .. maybe i’m too tired n as a result, i dikejutkan oleh my sis at 8 am.. apa lagi.. melompat laa gua dari katil.. ngan nak kene mandinya.. gosok baju lagi.. dah laa kene pakai baju kurung.. isk… n i reached concorde hotel at 9.. thanks to god jalan tak jem n i got function to attend.. kalau tak pasti merah punch card… ooopppssss.. terlepas plak terbagi tau my opis yg sangat gergasi ini masih menggunakan punch card machine.. hehehehe..
then, my 2 colleagues ngadu kata diorang tak breakfast lagi.. cian mereka.. tapi nak buat cemana i pon tak makan apa lagi… hehe.. then i dapat mandat kata cnar nak kan business card dia w new logo.. damn.. i need to go to ois laa gamaknya kan.. dengan pertolongan abg nik yg bawak kete company, i terus ke opis.. dah laa tgh anggun.. ngan heels yg tinggi.. skali dalam kesusahan nak menjaga kain i yg ditiup bayu, i terpelecok sket.. akakaka.. malu beb.. hehehe..
on my way to concorde, i bought 4 nasi lemak.. meeting started n kami dok dengar laa mat salleh tu explained bout the project.. bla bla bla n bla.. kawan i tak dapat nak capture semua yg kat slide n muka dia i tgk dah cam taucu.. i asked her to makan dulu n i cover kejap.. she did laa kan.. tapi cnar lak naik angin.. dia terus keluar bilik n i think she tried to call my fren ni.. she enter the room ngn muka cam air apple lime secret recipe.. masam!!! yuck.. dia cakap ngn i “u better find her.. nak jadi secretary, acted like secretary”.. lebey kurang camtu laaa.. i pon melilau cari n found her kat surau tgh makan.. cian dia baru 2 -3 mulut dah bungkus balik nasi lemak tu.. but alhamdulillah cnar tak “belasah” dia.. until last nite..
then bila lunch time kami turun lambat.. n bila dah ambil makanan semua, takde plak 3 seats utk kami bertiga.. semua meja ada 2 seats kosong je.. n kami tak berani dok ngn cnar n the delegates n mem besar kami.. dorang choose to seat with indonesian guys.. n nak tak nak i kene duduk ngn bos i.. i asked cnar ada org duduk ke lagi 2 chair tu.. cnar kata takde.. n u know what.. bila i ajak diorang dok ngn i, diorang leh kata taknak.. tak best duduk ngn bos. .tak heppening nak makan.. leh tak? n ada i kesah sebab i makan banyak jugak.. ahahaha..
funny when cnar asked me to wait for her while she go check out n check in to another room (due to takde bilik kosong for 2 nites).. i waited patiently for 40 minutes.. n she did not turned up.. shit.. i text her mobile “cnar, in case u have forgotten, i’m still at melting pot (tmpt kami makan tu laa)..nway, i’m going up now to open the meeting room” .. n till last nite dia tak apologize for that..
lastly, funny when this 1 COO from other business unit leh datang kat meja kami masa dinner n said “what are u doing here?” rasa nak pengsan i masa my frens citer balik pengalaman diorang disoal sebegitu rupa.. ekcelli that soklan patut kami tanya dia.. who is he to attend our event? takde kene mengena langsung.. even for other sr. management pon.. sebab tak nampak pulak diorang ni beramah mesra with the delegates.. asik bermesra sendiri je.. sukalaa tu dapat invitation makan free.. nak cut cost kononnya diorang ni.. tak paham i..
k lah.. nak sambung vett the agreement.. chiaow..
saket… 8.7.2009
I’m sick.. … having a bad flu and cough… tapi i tak MC.. hehehe.. baikkan tetiba i nih.. huhuhu… gikpon ada meeting tetiap hari.. kesian plak kalau CNAR kene ambik minutes kan.. tu kan keje kulikutif.. bukan senior manager taw!!! hehe
…. 30.6.2009
i tgh bosan.. giler punya bosan.. lately terlalu banyak perkara terjadi dan sering bermain main di pkran ku.. namun i sering convertkan semua yg negatif pada positif.. there are things yg biler i pk kan, i rasa cam hati ini di kelar kelar… ouch!! but takder gunanya pon kan nak termenung jauh.. lantas, i akan ceriakan diri sendiri.. coz only i know wut to do when i’m totally depressed…
i dah berbulan tunggu nak tgk transformers but bila dah start ditayangkan, i tak bley tgk pulak.. ada je benda menghalang.. n i hate to postponed things which i waited long… takper takper.. my next plan to watch this weekend.. hopefully kali ni menjadi… anyway, things changed n i need to learn to be patience… S.A.B.A.R.. walaupon ekcelli i orang second penyabar (of course my daddy paling penyabar.. kan dia ketua keluarga.. kalau cepat melatah, habis laa tunggang langgang keharmonian umah kami) dalam rumah i tuh, tapi i am the worse bila part org lain or even myself tak punctual n if my plan destroy tanpa alasan kukuh.. i guess my fiance dah masak sangat ngan perangai me.. kan yang kan? hehehe.. maybe coz i put extra damn effort to plan, n usually i ada buffer for every circumstances, so bila tak jadi, gua akan sangat marah.. sangat sangat marah.. n eazily i akan jadi moody… sigh…
lately i teringat ngn ad… lama sangat tak ketemu ad.. ke mana laa ad ilang ye??? bday ad on 10th june was the last time i contacted her. gayut lama gakk.. nanti laa i mmg nak buat satu entree utk ad.. n people around me yg i missed a lot lately..
